Indeed

I get hardly any sleep I'm either in lots of pain or I just keep thinking about shit in the past and how dramatically different my life would be and would I like it that way or would I just feel trapped?.
I feel like everyone around me is fading away once more but this time I actually don't feel that bad about it I'm thinking about just becoming fully dedicated to my work and just forgetting about everything else because at the end of the day I just think.. Is it all worth it? like seriously.. what the fuck is the point in all of this..
I'm feeling really fed up with everything and to be honest I don't care how emo that sounds because Its the truth I'm losing everything I have left so all I will have is my job and my bed and to be honest I wont complain about that because I've lost what I've loved so their ain't a care in the world to lose the rest.

Fuckity fun.

Well two days ago I finally got my drum kit of which I have been dreaming of for years... spend quite a lot of money on it and my mother said "Least you have something to take you anger out on." ha. I went to test my symbols and then my "Neighbour" came down treating me like shit saying that she is going to kick my head in... she clearly isn't since she has been saying that to me for about 5 years now..

I seriously hate where I live I cant talk without getting a complaint...
I can't play music, drums or even laugh loud.

My mum needs somewhere away from bitchy cows of neighbours.
I work my whole day away.. I get stressed at work and I also have all this shit going through my mind of which I want to just release it all into the world and I could do that in a positive way by using my drums but naw.. cause a stupid cow wants to moan about fucking everything It's shit.

I actually couldn't care less what she says on Saturday cause them drums are smached into like it or not... And its gonna be even worse cause I will have all this stress building up to more and more..
And yes... this will be fucking epic.

Adventures beyond the Movies.

Well recently I've made an amazing friend called Luke who is really funny and has one of the funniest personality's I've seen in a while!.. He has took most of my free time we hung out all last weekend and he kept me really entertained for some time and he also was with me through the whole kelvin grove street party and that has got to be one of the best highlights recently! I was on his shoulders in the rave and it ended up making it on youtube and he also started mosh pits that was also awesome cause like everyone of them where successful.
We also went to Balloch together and he made me go into the freezing cold water of which made me feel like I was dying and then when I went to go out a guy pushed me back in it was fun but very cold.

Since the past few days I've been having the worlds worst migraines I've been off work of which sucks rather a lot I enjoy my job its very entertaining always keeps me busy and there is always a laugh to be had the bosses are all brand new and the work is easy enough to get through and by the end of the day I feel shattered but in an amazing way cause I know that I've worked my hardest.

I'm really looking forward to tonight cause I'm going to the pub with Luke and since every time we are something amazing happens it makes it even more better to Luke forward to.

Well since thats just me updated the past week then I guess I'm done :) goodbye.