Well through living the life of a person of which has a life to be lived I am having fun doing things I want to do going places of which I would love to be.
Well having another year and a half of Glasgow left I want it to be amazing.. I want lots of memories that will make me just go to bed knowing everything that was to be lived here has been.
When I move away from Glasgow I would be coming back every now and again to see my friends and family but hopefully when I move everything would just be all great so I don't keep thinking about my friends and stuff.. I know that sounds crap but when I move away I don't want to be coming over like every day.. cause I wont have the time or the money to do it.
Well when I move over away I'm going to have everything sorted for me and I really can't wait.. being able to go places without seeing someone that gives me bad memories.. then they are actually out of my life forever.
All I want in life now is to go somewhere and do something and make just everyday the best I really can.
Since Late 2009 till late 2010 my life was a complete fuck over.. when most of it was happening I thought that was the best thing ever but really all it was doing was building up to completely fuck over my life.. after the complete breakdown and all the bad shit I done now everything is looking up.. so far 2011 is amazing and hopefully it shall keep being that way.. looking forward to late 2012 ;3 for then I can just make my life the way I want it.
Thursday, 20 January 2011
Monday, 17 January 2011
The story so far
Well through the 18 days of 2011 mostly everything has went completely right for me and it feels amazing.. I actually feel like this year could be the best year of my life.. make 16 a good age!
Getting close to old friends and new friends and met lots of new people of whom are amazing.. Just before 2011 started I met people who I just connected with straight away because they actually understand me... they understand my mind my jokes my pain everything.. being able to find people you can truly open up to without shit getting thrown in my face is amazing.. starting life all over again was the best thing I could ever have done for myself.
I'm successfully removing age 15 from my brain and all the bad in 2010.
People say that blocking things out is bad for you but when I didn't block it out I kept having nightmares, Not being able to sleep much, Not being able to sleep and getting myself into lots of bad stuff with very bad people.. but I have completely cleaned myself of everything that was fucking over my life and I have grown up a little yet I still feel about 12 its nice.
Recently I have got my imagination back.. I lost it half way through 2010 and I just felt like a completely different person, I just wasn't myself at all.. didn't have the sense of humour that I loved.. Didn't have the funny thoughts in my head all the time.. lost all the good stuff that made me.. well me.
Because of my friends I have completely changed.. I have got everything I liked about myself and changed everything I hated.. I have got back what I missed about myself and lost what I didn't care for.. and that may just seem meh to anyone else but its the greatest thing that could happen to me and it's the thing I really needed to happen.
I love my friends.
I love my life.
Getting close to old friends and new friends and met lots of new people of whom are amazing.. Just before 2011 started I met people who I just connected with straight away because they actually understand me... they understand my mind my jokes my pain everything.. being able to find people you can truly open up to without shit getting thrown in my face is amazing.. starting life all over again was the best thing I could ever have done for myself.
I'm successfully removing age 15 from my brain and all the bad in 2010.
People say that blocking things out is bad for you but when I didn't block it out I kept having nightmares, Not being able to sleep much, Not being able to sleep and getting myself into lots of bad stuff with very bad people.. but I have completely cleaned myself of everything that was fucking over my life and I have grown up a little yet I still feel about 12 its nice.
Recently I have got my imagination back.. I lost it half way through 2010 and I just felt like a completely different person, I just wasn't myself at all.. didn't have the sense of humour that I loved.. Didn't have the funny thoughts in my head all the time.. lost all the good stuff that made me.. well me.
Because of my friends I have completely changed.. I have got everything I liked about myself and changed everything I hated.. I have got back what I missed about myself and lost what I didn't care for.. and that may just seem meh to anyone else but its the greatest thing that could happen to me and it's the thing I really needed to happen.
I love my friends.
I love my life.
Thursday, 6 January 2011
Another year.
After 2010 being a complete fuck up I have decided to change my ways of this little thing I call life.
After 2010 I can clearly see who my friends are.. throughout 2010 their was a lot of people that I thought where my friends... I have thought if for several years but clearly I was completely wrong.
Within the time it took 2010 to pass I have been fucked over throughout the relationship department and it completely sucks balls.. Hopefully this year I can find someone more committed or at least someone who would be friends with me after the split up.. I hate getting really close with a female in a relationship cause then I start to actually think its going to work out then I introduce her to my little sister and stuff... and when we break up and they don't want to talk to me again... kinda fucks everything over big time.
No that we are 7 days in to 2011 I have had an meh kinda year.. the best things that have happened so far is that I got to see TJ and Levi.. and I have been getting pretty close to Alex she is an awesome friend.. we share the same humour so when I'm around her or just talking to her online she always takes my mind off whatever is bugging me.
After everything I went through in 2010... the massive break down and completely fucking my life up.. then friends making me pick my ass back up.
Its safe to say that from now on I'm going to be a lot stronger in life.
After 2010 I can clearly see who my friends are.. throughout 2010 their was a lot of people that I thought where my friends... I have thought if for several years but clearly I was completely wrong.
Within the time it took 2010 to pass I have been fucked over throughout the relationship department and it completely sucks balls.. Hopefully this year I can find someone more committed or at least someone who would be friends with me after the split up.. I hate getting really close with a female in a relationship cause then I start to actually think its going to work out then I introduce her to my little sister and stuff... and when we break up and they don't want to talk to me again... kinda fucks everything over big time.
No that we are 7 days in to 2011 I have had an meh kinda year.. the best things that have happened so far is that I got to see TJ and Levi.. and I have been getting pretty close to Alex she is an awesome friend.. we share the same humour so when I'm around her or just talking to her online she always takes my mind off whatever is bugging me.
After everything I went through in 2010... the massive break down and completely fucking my life up.. then friends making me pick my ass back up.
Its safe to say that from now on I'm going to be a lot stronger in life.
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